This year has been really hard for me. There’s been mornings I wasn’t sure I wanted to keep going and a lot of nights that I’ve been exhausted but couldn’t rest. I put on a pretty good front. Only a handful of people have known about this until now. I feel guilty for even complaining because I’ve been blessed with way more than I ever deserve in life, but I wanted to share two things in hopes that it might help someone else… (1) the end is in sight, we are going to make it, and (2) depression is real and it doesn’t discriminate. It’s not something you have to battle alone either, get help.
As we get older we have to lean more on faith than people because it just keeps getting harder. Our circle always gets smaller as we get older. The ones you thought would always be there will eventually take their last breath and move on while others will just flat out betray you. It’s so important to have faith in something that’s the same today, tomorrow, and forever. It’s important to have a constant presence in our lives, some people call it their “true north”. I think it’s also really important to have gratitude for everything, even the smallest of things we easily take for granted because I promise you when they are gone you realize how much you miss them.
I can’t tell you how much I’d love to just have one more phone call with my dad. Sometimes we just have to take deep breaths and walk ourselves through situations minute by minute every if we are just barely hanging on. Just one of the crazy things that happened this year was that I lost a coworker to depression, he was on Google meet smiling that morning and by that evening he was gone. So I share this in hopes it helps someone that might be struggling to know they aren’t alone. We are going to make it through 2024 and 2025 has to be better. #depression
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